Violent

There are so many things on my heart tonight, I just don't know where to start. I learned more than one disturbing and sad piece of information today and I'm still processing things.

Luckily, I also had my Mom's Small group at Lydia's house...She's a gem. All the ladies that attend my group are! Thanks girls, I don't know what I'd do with out you! We are reading Hind's Feet on High Places by Hannah Hurnard for our group discussion. This is a must read! I love it!

God has been teaching me many things through this book. Most recently, it has helped me come to realize how badly I need to recognize the attacks of my enemies! So many times, the lies come flying at me, or worse, conversations start to take place in my head and I forget that there is an enemy to be fought.

In the book, Hinds feet on High Places, the main character is Much-Afraid...yeah, that's her name. She is on a journey to the High Places. She is being led there by the Good Shepard. And her enemies are trying to get her to turn back. There names are Pride, Self-pity, Resentment, and Craven Fear. There are many more, but these show up the most often...that's funny, they show up the most often in my story too.

I'll admit, sometimes I just plain give into Resentment by agreeing with and repeating his lies. Its a terrible sight when I start to spew his toxic waste out on my family. But some days I am able to hold my tongue. That's when Self-pity steps into to take over. He is soon followed by Shame.

Shame is probably the sneakiest. I know its not right to agree with Resentment and Self-pity, so Shame creeps in to tell me how horrible I am for believing them. By doing this, he gets me to wallow in the mud with him instead of standing up to fight. My favorite part of this book so far is when the main character gets sick of hearing her enemies...she can't really do anything to drown them out so she gets violent. The usually mild Much-Afraid, takes her stand and starts to stone her enemies, she is helped by her two companions given to her by the Good Shepard and her enemies quickly run away.

So, I've decided that tomorrow, I'm going to walk around with my Sword of the Spirit and when I hear the lies of my enemies...I'm going to get violent.